Well, I think I can say "I hold it together" pretty well on a daily basis. With that said, I have break down weeks. Last week was a "break down" week, Yesterday was too. All I could do was lay there are cry. "A" asked me what was wrong and if we could talk about it. I didn't even know what to say...then a song came on Pandora (the one playing on my blog right now). It pretty much summed up how I was feeling. "I don't quite know, how to say, how I feel", "I've said too much, but not enough..."
Thanks to those of you who listend to me and let me cry on their shoulder last week. I think sometimes I just get overwhelmed with everything! The emotional stress of fighting for our child's life, working full-time, doing research and finding the best drs, hospitals & proceedures. Coordinating babysitters, drs apt, physical therapy, occupational therapy & Speech therapy. Paying bills, keeping up on heath insurance to make sure the medical bills are being submitted & finding out why bills are getting denied by insurance. Getting blood work & labs back. Remembering what medication we are decressing, starting, or upping. Trying to get a hold of the drs...etc. Sometimes life gets the best. But, I find that everytime I feel like I've hit my wall and I seriously CAN NOT TAKE one more thing...(just like in my last post)...the Lord sends me Angels that lift me up. Yesterday was the same day that the Elders Corm stopped by and asked what they could do to help us. (another reason why I LOVE our church! http://mormon.org/ ). We have amazing members! We also had a bunch of the ladies in the ward offer to bring baked goods & help set up etc. for the Bake Sale. Someone even offered to bake 10 dozen cookies! Thanks to all who are making this "Burden" lighter on our family.